So, Annie had gotten a
call a few days ago. And now that she'd had a few days to think (and to cry, and to pray, and to drink) about it, she was butting up to maybe actually being able to
respond.
There was so
much to say? But at the same time, so much she wasn't sure
how to say. There was a prevailing feeling of
lightness that had ballooned in her chest at hearing Wanda's recorded voice, even after everything -- but that lightness was also chased by something she didn't want to admit was
panic that Wanda was still alive, even if she was sorry.
After this summer, and the year before, and now
this -- Annie's fear responses were becoming sharper and sharper by the day. She didn't
like that about herself -- she was supposed to be a dang superhero, unafraid of
anything, but it was happening anyway.
On the bright side, her twitchiness and inability to relax meant that the mistletoe that had been creeping along one wall was now but a scorch mark on the wall across from her. (Which, of course, did not mean more would not be back.)
In any case, she finally willed herself to hit the send button on the text she'd been waffling on for days:
I'm glad you're okay.And that was all there was to it, really. She
was. There was more, but that part was true.
And now she was sending a much easier text to Wong, who had offered to help her find a superhero-friendly therapist, and good
God was it obvious that Annie needed one of those.
[mostly establishy but totally open to neighbors, husbands, texts, calls, etc.]